Seize the Night!!!

I first would like to greet everyone a Happy New Year.

My overly analytical mind is acting up again. I wasn’t able to sleep a wink last night because I’ve been thinking too much about what the future holds for me. Proof of this is that I’m writing this at 7:30 AM. I don’t usually get up until around 11:00 AM.

It’s already a new year and I still don’t have a job. Although I have been trying to look; passing my resume around and stuff. I still haven’t received any calls. It’s kind of scaring me, really. I don’t know. Am I not qualified for any of the jobs I applied for?

My usual response to a problem like this would be to say to myself, "It’s not yet time. Just wait. Be in sniper-mode… blah blah blah…" but I have to face the fact that I’m not getting any younger. And in this competitive job market, age is definitely a factor.

I’m 23 years old. In Human Resource terms, I’m not considered as a young upstart. The preferable age nowadays is 20-22. 23 is when companies actually expect work experience from an employee. Something which I don’t really have because I only dabbled in freelance stuff; nothing really groundbreaking.

This fact alone made me size up what I may face this 2006. I’m not gonna lie. It’s overwhelming me and I am pretty afraid of the challenges about. It made me think a lot about alternate sources of income; like a small business of sorts, or a website, or whatever. These made me think even more about the risks involved in engaging in such endeavors.

Yes, I am definitely afraid of what I think the future holds for me. But that doesn’t mean that I’m just gonna run and hide. I’m not really looking forward to facing these challenges but when time comes that I do face them, I have no choice but to give it my all to get through.

I just pray to God that I will have enough strength to take on this new year. And I also pray that I stop thinking too much. It stresses me out a lot.

Sheesh… Talk about being paranoid.