Seize the Night!!!

It’s been a month, I know. Sorry If I haven’t been able to update in while. I guess I was just trying to catch up on myself recently, especially in my love life.

Warning: this is gonna be the most fucked up post I’ve ever written.

I’ve been hanging out with this girl (name witheld for security reasons) for the past month. I don’t know but I just suddenly found myself trying to find every excuse to spend time with her. I’ve met her even before I graduated, but during that time, she was just another face in the crowd. It was only during the past month that I started getting drawn to her and I really don’t know why. But who cares?

She’s just the most amazing woman I’ve seen. A smile from her makes my whole day happy. The mere sound of her voice is like an orchestra resonating in a chamber of perfect reverbaration. And everytime she hugs me, even for just a second, I feel as if I’m in a period of stasis that I don’t want to get out of. It is with these facts that I’ve confirmed that I am in love.

I’ve always had a fear of confessing my love to someone unless it’s a sure thing. Yes, I am a risk taker in the all aspects of my life, except love. But she is just so different. She is the kind of woman that I’d risk anything for. She’s not someone that I’d die for, but live for instead. She is someone who has made me forget about the fear of hurting, and that made me not fear love either. So I did confess to her because I am not afraid anymore.

Her response was something that left me hanging. I asked her… "So… do I have a chance?" She replied, "I can’t answer that right now…" I actually don’t know what to feel. Although, I can tell that she is not ready to take our friendship to the next plateau. She is still young and quite sheltered, to be frank. As I’ve mentioned… I am stuck in limbo awaiting her response.

Oh well… whether her decision is favorable or not, I still somehow gained something from it. At least I was able to love someone without fearing anything. I was able to finally take a chance on love. This is the best Christmas gift that God has ever given me. And I am eternally grateful.

Oh well, sorry if you all had to sit through all that mushy stuff. Merry Christmas.