Waiting for the next race to begin.
The end of a journey always marked the beginning of a new one. In my current situation, though, I think I may still be stuck in the transition.
I just recently finished my degree in Business Administration-Major in Computer Applications. After six (yes, six long years) in college, I shall finally get my diploma come October.
It was a very long, emotional, tedious, tiring, and fun race with debris scattered allover the track but I ran that race. And I won.
I know that right now I should be in the winners circle; celebrating my victory, thanking the people who supported me, and spraying champagne to the crowd. But, I just really don’t know. Now that the race is over, I feel so empty… So idle… So useless.
I am trying to hunt for a job right now while taking advantage of my ‘no-more-school’ days by doing the things that I wasn’t able to do when my thesis was still pending. Things like biking, playing video games and watching TV (I did shut myself out a bit too much back there, didn’t I?) which are very much fun and helps pass the time. However, it doing those things never really gave me a sense of purpose.
This may sound weird but, in a very strange sense, I do miss school. I miss doing my thesis; I miss the no-sleep nights; I miss the deadlines of the school paper; I miss the pressure. I guess I got so used to the pressure, that I became dependent on it for motivation.
Oh well, I guess I’ll just be looking and waiting for the next race for now.
