Blame It On The Rain
First of all, I would like to clarify that the title doesn’t necessarily mean that I’m listening or have recently listened to that song by the fake Milli Vanilli. It just has something to do with changes that have been going on in my personality. Or so I think…
I’ve been losing my edge lately. I’m not the mad-as-fuck, kill-’em-all, and get-the-fuck-out-of-my-face person that I used to be. Sure, I still do like to comment and rant but it seems that I have gone down a level and I now exhibit hints of humility and respect for others. Not that it’s a bad thing. It’s just that I’m not used to it. I guess something has doused my fiery wrath so I’ll just have to blame it on the rain.
As a person that considers fire as his primary element, saying that I hate the rain was an overstatement of my sentiments. It even came to a point wherein I would curse the heavens and blame the rain for everything shitty that’s happening in the world. I mean, c’mon, they do cause floods, traffic and disease. And also, for some strange reason, the rain weakens me a lot. It always puts me in that state that makes me want to be immobile and just sleep.
One thing I realized about the rain, though, is how it relaxes me. Yes, I may feel weakened but I also feel calm, docile and tranquil. Everytime I wake up from a stupor that is caused by the rain, I feel recharged because, even for just a few moments, I was in a peaceful state; not thinking about anything and refreshing my totality.
Yes, I am starting to sound like some smoked-off guru. Oh well. Blame it on the rain.
For whatever reasons, I think I’m starting to like this less-edgier me. The people around me seem to like it better, too.
And I think I’m starting to like the rain as well.
Well, What else can I say? Blame it on the rain.
September 28th, 2005 at 2:44 am
less edgy doesn’t mean less lethal. >:)
September 28th, 2005 at 9:35 am
True that. I just got more control.